Saw some graffiti around camberwell saying “we will never think outside the brain” so deep so true.

also never break your glasses can be expensive to fix. say 300 dollars. it was good effort.

also have you ever noticed the picture of the cat on the kitty litter bag looks like the most satisfied cat on the planet. He must have taken one massive crap!

its my day off, so I sleep but due to not sleeping well lately I don’t sleep in much. So i get up and wonder downstairs to play playstation but it turns out the house is full of the housemate’s parents and family sleeping minus the housemate, so no games and back to bed. Now i spend my day off in the my room. thank you very much!

So my recent conclusion is this. People say money can’t buy you happiness and I suppose that’s true but I don’t want to buy happiness I want to buy things to make me happy dammit! I have this itch that can’t be scratched I need to make a movie I need to, it’s no longer a want it’s a need and if I don’t do it I will go insane (not might but will). So what it boils down to. I have everything I need (minus willing actors) to make a film but the computer I have is 8 years old and is struggling to keep up with my demand of processor speed and graphics not to mention the path of CGI I want to travel down. A 2,000 dollar computer will get me out of trouble a 6,000 computer would change my life. The things i would do to that computer! OOO YEAH!

So what I think I’m saying beneath all the dribble, my life needs direction, focus something i feel only getting back into film making will bring.

3. Go to the cricket.
13. Fly somewhere.
15. Visit a town I’ve never been to before.
17. Play Laser Tag.
18. Wear the Aussie flag as cape! to an event.
19. See a band play for the first time.
24. Get contact lenses.
29. Go to the open range zoo.

2 more down (that’s 8 in total 22 to go) both me and Nadine went to the 20:20 cricket match it was a nail-biter and a great match! Definitely will be going again next year.

Also went with Nadine to see AC/DC these old men sure know how to rock a show it was awesome and we’ll never see a show like that again.

(small side note: the average age of the band is 60 years old but the fan were showing more boobs then any local strip bar. A little scary to say the least)

So for my 23rd birthday all I wanted was to tick something off the “Bucket list of sorts” and so Nadine took me to the open range zoo. Going on safari is something I’ve wanted to do for ages! But not only did we go we went in style paying the extra dosh to get up close to the animals, it was great!

Made me want to go to Africa!…. Africa would be so much better if there no people there, just animals right?

Anyway happy birthday to me and thanks to everyone’s birthday wishes.

Holidays continue and it’s great! Australia day for me means BIG DAY OUT! And this year was great!

It was a hot day full of great music and great fun and this year I wore an Australian flag as a cape (tick! Off the list) and let me just say to all those ever thinking of going to the big day out the Aussie flag cape is a must! Not only is it cool but it doubles as sun protection and you can wet it to keep you cool.

Also recently I did something I said I would do ages ago and that’s visit a friend of mine who moved to a small country town of Benalla.

I’d never been to Benalla so made the effort to head there for the day, my friend was happy to see me and Benalla although small was a nice town to visit.

So its holidays time and its a strange time for me, I always try to take some time off around my birthday so I can do something (so far doing nothing on my actual birthday) but never has it been as much as two weeks and because I have to book the time off so far in advance you can’t really plan for what happens.

This is were the list comes in,

“not sure what to do with your time! Well quit being lazy and tick off the list”

After spending 24hours in Mildura for Christmas I decided I needed more time to spend with friends and family, I did see them at Christmas but we didn’t really get to do the things I enjoy most with me friends like going out and having a few drinks or working on cars etc. etc. basicly everything I did when I was 18 (that was a Goodyear) it was a shame Nadine couldn’t make it. We were a few short of being the full crew again but we put in a fair effort for those missing.

13.Fly somewhere: After making the painful 7 hours drive twice in 3 days at Christmas I really couldn’t pass up flying there in 45mins at about the same cost. Sure it was a challenge to get places at times due to cars being out of order but it was part of the adventure.

17.Laser tag: We decided that laser tag would be the perfect way to work up a thirst before drinking and boy did we. It took a game to get into it but that second match we kicked arse. We decided when teamwork and defensive positions don’t work, and loud noises and scare the little kids into the back corner before going at them using team-mates as human shields…… needless to say we OWNED. ULTRA PWNAGE!

So yes had an awesome time but the best thing of all is I’ve only been on holidays for 4 days still got a week and a half to go. AWESOME!

So right now,  I’m in my hometown of Mildura a small rather hot town in Victoria Australia, Its been a while since I’ve been back for anytime longer then 24 hours and I have to say I’m enjoying it and its good me thinking.

Would I move back to Mildura? – Probley not but I miss this. If I moved back to Mildura

• I would be near my family (including all extended family) something I really miss, every week there is a family event either BBQ, fishing or going out for dinner.
• I would be near my friends who are all in the one spot for the first time in 4 years.
• I’d be in the country where the land you buy is a quarter the price, and twice the size.

although they are pretty strong arguments for moving home.

• There is some pretty seedy characters in Mildura and a higher percentage of Dickheads here then in Melbourne
• Being near both my family and Nadine would be great but between the two of them there would be no time for just and Nadine, something I enjoy and I really hate being guilt tripped into doing stuff when all I  want to do is watch TV with Nadine.
• The biggest point for not moving is work, or lack there of. I will never get a job in Mildura that pays as well as my job in Melbourne. Jobs is Mildura’s biggest problem (something I’m very passionate about but we’ll get to that another day.)

The bottom line, I remember the good times, Being with friends and laughing with family, spending time with Nadine, being by the water but the reality moving back will never work the way it would in my head. the place in my head is gone, Its changed its life & and you can’t go back, you can only move on. so where to?

I can’t blog without spell check, Nadine would kill me and Jess would correct me.

After talking about it for years i finally got contact lenses, it still feels strange but i like it, i can wear sunglasses and 3d galsses now.  1 down 29 to go. going well.